Support Families Who Have a Terminally Ill Child

Nicole Aghar was just eight weeks old when her mum Lyndsey noticed her daughter’s eyelids flickering oddly.  Nicole was Lyndsey’s first child, and like any first time-mother, Lyndsey was worried she was being overly anxious.  

Not wanting to ignore her motherly instinct, she took Nicole to her local GP who referred Nicole immediately to the hospital on Christmas Eve 2007.  A month later, the family were given the devastating news that the flickering eyes Lyndsey had witnessed were the symptoms of a brain tumour.  There was more bad news.  The location of the visual palsy glioma tumour meant that it was too dangerous to operate on and that the tumour had destroyed Nicole’s sight.  Nicole was blind.  Doctors were unable to operate without causing further damage and prescribed 18 months of aggressive chemotherapy.

 Lyndsey was told about Rainbow Trust by a social worker when Nicole was first diagnosed at three months old.  Lyndsey was adamant that she didn’t need the help of outside services and refused the support of a Family Support Worker, worrying that it reflected badly on her capabilities as a mum. 

 The day after she was christened in February 2008, Nicole’s chemotherapy treatment began.  For Lyndsey, Nicole’s treatment and hospital stays proved an upsetting and lonely period.  Nicole’s father, Andrew, had used up annual leave for Nicole’s previous hospital appointments, scans and early treatment and was told he’d have to take unpaid leave for any further absences from work.  Unable to live without Andrew’s salary, Lyndsey spent weeks by Nicole’s bedside alone, staying overnight whenever her daughter needed to stay in and watching her hooked up to machines, giving her treatment and medication, blood and platelet transfusions that made her desperately ill.  Lyndsey found it difficult to keep five month old Nicole occupied, and her blindness meant that Nicole didn’t know when it was day or night and so proved a fitful sleeper.

Neither Lyndsey nor Andrew could drive, and so they were both reliant on their parents for transport to and from weekly hospital appointments.  Andrew would spend time with Lyndsey and Nicole on days off at weekends, but mostly Lyndsey was alone with Nicole.  Despite her painful chemotherapy treatments, which made her bones ache, Nicole was a happy child, always laughing and very responsive to her mum and close family.

When Nicole was 18 months old, the support of Rainbow Trust was again suggested to Lyndsey who realised how the charity could support her and Andrew and gratefully met with Family Support Worker Vicky from Rainbow’s County Durham based team. 

Looking back Lyndsey muses: “We’d have been lost without Vicky, I understand that now.  I was worried that people would think I didn’t care about my daughter if I let someone else sit with her in hospital, but I realise now that I needed support to continue to support my daughter.”

Vicky’s impact on the family was immeasurable.  Lyndsey no longer had to rely on her parents or in-laws to for transport to the hospital, and instead Vicky offered professional, reliable transport assistance in her special Rainbow car, and the chance to chat through Lyndsey’s worries during the journeys.  Lyndsey now had another daughter, Brooke, to look after, meaning that her time was split between her two children, one in hospital, one at home.  If Nicole had a long stay in hospital, Vicky would visit, allowing Lyndsey to go and eat in the hospital canteen, collect clothes or toiletries from home or see her baby daughter.  During chemotherapy treatment, when Nicole felt well enough, Vicky would take Nicole and younger sister Brooke out to the park or on day trips to the Farm or soft play centres.  Lyndsey soon began to rely on Lindsay’s weekly visits, and remembers:

“I now know I couldn’t have gone on coping with all the stress without Vicky’s help.  I think I would have broken down without Rainbow’s support.  I used to get really defensive about Nicole, not wanting anyone’s help other than my close family.  Nicole’s illness has been such a strain on all us.  It took me a while to trust Vicky but she has never let me down and is wonderful with Nicole and Brooke.  I really don’t know what I would have done without her help.”

Unfortunately for Nicole, her recovery has not been without setbacks.  She has relapsed twice since the initial diagnosis and has endured two more courses of chemotherapy before her current course.  Complications have arisen due to the length and strength of the chemotherapy treatments and Lyndsey and Andrew have been warned that Nicole’s bone marrow is weak and tiring and her hearing has been affected.  Nicole is now on a different course of treatment for a year which she has so far had far less side affects from.

At her last scan, witnessing a shrunken tumour, Nicole’s doctor told Lyndsey that “We are winning, it’s just going to take a matter of time” which has left Lyndsey and Andrew feeling a lot more positive about Nicole’s future.  Nicole starts school in September, and Lyndsey is looking forward to enjoying Nicole making friends and reaching further milestones.  With Vicky’s help she can remain strong for her family and fight for Nicole’s good health.

“People always ask me, how do you do it, how do you cope with everything that has happened with Nicole.  I tell them, the day it breaks Nicole, is the day it’ll break me.  She is such a happy joyous child, how can I give up when she has so much to live for?  Rainbow’s support means I can cope as best as I possibly can for my family and for Nicole.”

Thank You to all our supporters, without your donations we wouldn’t be able to help families like Nicole’s.